Tuesday, February 24, 2009

I Changed Sex and Died - SALON

It happens that I have his soul and memories, but I am not him. I am a smart and attractive career woman, with a great life.

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I changed my sex and then killed myself on Thanksgiving Day.  Thanksgiving has never been the same since.

The day dawned cold and rainy.  I woke when it got light.  These days I wasn’t getting much sleep; a few hours here and there – that’s it.  Discomfort and stress kept me from getting a good night’s sleep.  It’s not easy living in a car.  I was living in my car where it ran out of gas, under a freeway overpass in West Los Angeles.  Though I woke feeling bleak and depressed on that rainy Thanksgiving day, I had no idea it would be my last.

Changing sex isn’t something that can be done in private.  You have to do it right in front of everyone in your life: family, friends, coworkers, boss, neighbors, the grocery checker.  And it’s not instantaneous; it takes a very long time.  Years.  And all the while, people watch with fascination and horror and sometimes revulsion, as you struggle to find yourself.  When people think about transsexuals, they don’t think about stuff like that.

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